Post by Danny on Jun 9, 2011 14:34:19 GMT
And the day arrived when it was more painful to stagnate, than it was to step out of the shadows and grow - fly like an Eagle...
And so, here I am on this day, 9th of June, 2011.
I remember starting to teach mediumship long before I was actually any good at it, which amazed a lot of people, even my Spiritual Guides were surprised. I worked on the premise that 'those who were any good at something, actually did it, and those who weren't, taught'. (Which I've since learnt is a load of guff, by the way!) I've now come full circle, and can do the mediumship to a fair standard, but look back and wonder if I'm actually still able to teach on the subject! It all seems so long ago now.
The common theme running through this is self doubt. The human disease of, 'I'm not good enough'. Why is it that I know I have the ability to serve others with mediumship, yet feel blocked and unable to move forward. I've been given a great opportunity by my dear friend and mentor, Mary Madonna to set up with an affiliation to Sacred Spirit, along with full support! But I'm clueless as to how to proceed. To say that I'm blocked and frustrated would be a gross understatement!
Anyway, I was in meditation earlier today and decided to meet the 'Danny from the future' - a technique I sometimes use to gain guidance and support in times of need. (A useful exercise if you've never tried it before). I decided to look 12 months in advance, but was 'turned away' by my Guide and told that I had to deal with this in a different way. Feeling despair, I asked my etheric companion to offer me a clue as to where to look? I confided in him that I didn't feel like I had a 'compass and flash light' on this occasion, like I usually do on most issues. He then projected an image before me of my Son, whom I've not officially seen since he was three years old (now seventeen). I was then impressed to connect with his spirit. My infant Son was soon bouncing on my lap, just as he used to 'back in the day'. A mind to mind communication then took place. I asked him if there was anything that he wished to ask me. The reply was short, yet immediate.
"Why did you abandon me"?
I proceeded to tell him about my ten year battle with drug addiction, and how his Mother did probably the only thing she could, and left me. I was no good to myself, never mind anybody else, and felt totally worthless. My belief was that I didn't deserve to have a family unit and all the love that can come with this. Whilst I didn't offer this as an excuse, it was a reason for my absence all of those years. Along with an inherent fear of rejection.
My Son then pondered long and hard, looking through my eyes, as if to pierce deep into my soul. He finally exclaimed;
"I forgive you"! "But more importantly, you need to forgive yourself"!
With thoughts now racing through my mind, I looked at my Son and pledged to support him in any way I could. But it was clear to me now that he was the teacher and I had much to learn from him! My next question was how do I proceed from this?
He held out his little hand and grasped mine. He prompted me to focus on an area of my solar plexus where I had long buried all of the pain and suffering. He told me that together we would dissolve it with love. And this is exactly what happened....
The next thing I heard was.
"I love you, Dad"!
With that, the flood gates opened and YEARS of tears were released! More than a decade of pain released.
So, this was my block. I also firmly believe that this energy ball I was carrying round may have progressed into some dis ease, further down the line, had I not been given the privilege and opportunity to work through it. Straight from the mouths of babes, as they say.
Why do I share this story? In the hope that it'll help somebody to realise that we are all more AMAZING than we can ever comprehend! And that we can bury our hurts so deep that we can feel like we've dealt with it. Yet it can be such a block which prevents us from reclaiming our dreams and brilliance.
If you got this far, then thanks for reading.
Love and best wishes,
Danny
And so, here I am on this day, 9th of June, 2011.
I remember starting to teach mediumship long before I was actually any good at it, which amazed a lot of people, even my Spiritual Guides were surprised. I worked on the premise that 'those who were any good at something, actually did it, and those who weren't, taught'. (Which I've since learnt is a load of guff, by the way!) I've now come full circle, and can do the mediumship to a fair standard, but look back and wonder if I'm actually still able to teach on the subject! It all seems so long ago now.
The common theme running through this is self doubt. The human disease of, 'I'm not good enough'. Why is it that I know I have the ability to serve others with mediumship, yet feel blocked and unable to move forward. I've been given a great opportunity by my dear friend and mentor, Mary Madonna to set up with an affiliation to Sacred Spirit, along with full support! But I'm clueless as to how to proceed. To say that I'm blocked and frustrated would be a gross understatement!
Anyway, I was in meditation earlier today and decided to meet the 'Danny from the future' - a technique I sometimes use to gain guidance and support in times of need. (A useful exercise if you've never tried it before). I decided to look 12 months in advance, but was 'turned away' by my Guide and told that I had to deal with this in a different way. Feeling despair, I asked my etheric companion to offer me a clue as to where to look? I confided in him that I didn't feel like I had a 'compass and flash light' on this occasion, like I usually do on most issues. He then projected an image before me of my Son, whom I've not officially seen since he was three years old (now seventeen). I was then impressed to connect with his spirit. My infant Son was soon bouncing on my lap, just as he used to 'back in the day'. A mind to mind communication then took place. I asked him if there was anything that he wished to ask me. The reply was short, yet immediate.
"Why did you abandon me"?
I proceeded to tell him about my ten year battle with drug addiction, and how his Mother did probably the only thing she could, and left me. I was no good to myself, never mind anybody else, and felt totally worthless. My belief was that I didn't deserve to have a family unit and all the love that can come with this. Whilst I didn't offer this as an excuse, it was a reason for my absence all of those years. Along with an inherent fear of rejection.
My Son then pondered long and hard, looking through my eyes, as if to pierce deep into my soul. He finally exclaimed;
"I forgive you"! "But more importantly, you need to forgive yourself"!
With thoughts now racing through my mind, I looked at my Son and pledged to support him in any way I could. But it was clear to me now that he was the teacher and I had much to learn from him! My next question was how do I proceed from this?
He held out his little hand and grasped mine. He prompted me to focus on an area of my solar plexus where I had long buried all of the pain and suffering. He told me that together we would dissolve it with love. And this is exactly what happened....
The next thing I heard was.
"I love you, Dad"!
With that, the flood gates opened and YEARS of tears were released! More than a decade of pain released.
So, this was my block. I also firmly believe that this energy ball I was carrying round may have progressed into some dis ease, further down the line, had I not been given the privilege and opportunity to work through it. Straight from the mouths of babes, as they say.
Why do I share this story? In the hope that it'll help somebody to realise that we are all more AMAZING than we can ever comprehend! And that we can bury our hurts so deep that we can feel like we've dealt with it. Yet it can be such a block which prevents us from reclaiming our dreams and brilliance.
If you got this far, then thanks for reading.
Love and best wishes,
Danny
