Post by ruth on Aug 17, 2009 22:42:06 GMT
So many people have passions in life. Some have them about cars, others its medicine or the holistic field, but at 45 years of age I am struggling with who do I want to be when I grow up.
This is no secret on this forum that I have been looking for another job. I am not happy where I am. So I asked myself today, what do I love? and for along as I can remember....I never have had a true passion about anything in life. Sure there are things that I want to do, but I had to put them on hold in February when I found out that I could lose my job. Than I thought, wow finally something that I can do and still be where I am at. Not the case. I had to cancel everything.
I see that some people do have it way worse than me and I acknowledge this with sorrow in my heart. I am fortunate that I am employed and this one boss I have is amazing. However the company has taken a turn to which I feel makes the company vulnerable to failure. I need to look out for my future.
I have been seeking for the last 5 months. Some days total tears in my eyes, while others nothing but joy.
I can't seem to figure out and I had this problem in high school on what do I want to do with my life. This is the reason I never went to college because I never knew and still don't.
I hear amazing things about places where others are at and wonder if that's a good fit, but when I leave it will not be for something temporary with days economy, someone who is in desperate need of a job needs that until I can find my passion.
I have no clue on what to do, where to go....I have done it all in searching and have been given much needed advice on networking, resume writing, etc.
I still find that my heart is not leading me, maybe because I am a free spirit and I go where spirit takes me. I go where the work needs to be done, than its time for me to move on and I do.
Basically...........I feel lost. Hmm maybe thats the wrong word, umm...just not attached to any one desire. IS this wrong?
Are there others out there like me? Or do I talk myself into loving where I am at until things go downhill than my feelings change?
Advice please!
love
ruth
This is no secret on this forum that I have been looking for another job. I am not happy where I am. So I asked myself today, what do I love? and for along as I can remember....I never have had a true passion about anything in life. Sure there are things that I want to do, but I had to put them on hold in February when I found out that I could lose my job. Than I thought, wow finally something that I can do and still be where I am at. Not the case. I had to cancel everything.
I see that some people do have it way worse than me and I acknowledge this with sorrow in my heart. I am fortunate that I am employed and this one boss I have is amazing. However the company has taken a turn to which I feel makes the company vulnerable to failure. I need to look out for my future.
I have been seeking for the last 5 months. Some days total tears in my eyes, while others nothing but joy.
I can't seem to figure out and I had this problem in high school on what do I want to do with my life. This is the reason I never went to college because I never knew and still don't.
I hear amazing things about places where others are at and wonder if that's a good fit, but when I leave it will not be for something temporary with days economy, someone who is in desperate need of a job needs that until I can find my passion.
I have no clue on what to do, where to go....I have done it all in searching and have been given much needed advice on networking, resume writing, etc.
I still find that my heart is not leading me, maybe because I am a free spirit and I go where spirit takes me. I go where the work needs to be done, than its time for me to move on and I do.
Basically...........I feel lost. Hmm maybe thats the wrong word, umm...just not attached to any one desire. IS this wrong?
Are there others out there like me? Or do I talk myself into loving where I am at until things go downhill than my feelings change?
Advice please!
love
ruth