the negative voice

[jojo]

Hi there, I know that this is my first post, and i did join a while back and not really contributed to the forum. I just want to apologise.
Ive been taking some time out to work on myself in particular my emotions and thoughts. But i have hit a stumbling block so to speak.
I have been struggling with a part of myself that is self defeatist in a way but really is quite aggressive. I know that this is part of myself that usually is suppressed and im trying to bring this to light and understand why so i can heal this part of myself.
its like a voice that is constantly argueing about situations that havent even occured, worries and fears that have no real place in my life, but seem to appear in my mind and can go on for quite a while just like some negative feedback loop.
Im a firm believer in what you send out you recieve, and i find that this thoughts are directed at people and situations. Its that what if situation, and response usually is aggressive and argumentative, this by the way is all going on im my head.
Im trying to find advise in using reiki to bring to light the source of this suppressed part of myself, so that i can aknowledge this and heal this part of myself.
If anyone has had this experience and have any suggestions, tips, meditations etc. it would be appreciated.
Kind regards JOJO

[ruth]

Jojo~

You are on the path of self discovery, how cool is that?

Your ego the part of you that is negative, your higher self, your inner self or whatever you want to call it is always positive.

Fighting ego is something that so many people do, self included. Feeding it is what is making it stronger and allows that other side of you to come out. It's not a bad thing, but.......

Your higher self is always loving, it knows NO negative and its what encourages you. It's finding that balance in yourself that makes you happy and no one will know that better than you.

Its a practice that can be picked up at any given time. Observe the ego and..let it go. Acknowledging that it has spoken is sometimes enough to tame it. However if you are like me, my ego talks loudly. I get into the habit of putting it to sleep...like a child. It's all mental. ..and takes lots of practice. Once the higher self becomes stronger that smile, that gleam of happiness seems to find its way out.

Best of luck....you are not alone!


love
ruth

[omen23]

hey jojo and ruth i'm also one with an negativity problem but i always try to not think negativly i stoped thinking about death and now it is easyer for me
i chuse LIFE not death and few of negative things vanished from my life
so u 2 guys are not alone

[jojo]

Thank you for your responses and insight. I now realise that this part of me is hanging onto judgement and the past and trying make things into a perfect scenario where everything is just fine. What i need to learn is acceptance that im not able to change the things around me but only myself and response to this.
Ive have started working with the heart chakra more, a medition that came to me by insight, that not only heals myself but also allows for healing to everything. A healing wave sent out towards everything that needs it. I have started working with healing map teams and shamballa. I like the meditations and variety. I also realise that what is now accuring within me is a healing crises or dark night of the soul where no matter what i do it just doesnt seem to work.
Alot of work ahead, and i know that it isnt going to be easy.
the key is perserverance, i just need to get my head down and really start to analyse my motivations. But the accepting thing is a bit of a bitter pill.
A rough journey up ahead, but yet i find myself smiling, relieved almost that atleast i have direction along a journey of discovery.
Its funny what happens, when you blow of some steam, you think a little clearly, and i know that this is what needed to happen.
Once again thank you for you support and insights
A fellow journeyman, with love light and reiki shining out to everyone.
jojo

[ruth]

This is what is so great about this site! We are all here for each other, get different views, direction and help. ;D

Blow off the steam!!! relax and ask away! ;D ;D ;D


love
ruth

[omen23]

hehe thx ruth
love and peace Domen