Post by fruity on Apr 21, 2014 5:47:26 GMT
Another one of my facebook friends who has EDS Vascular type died last week in her sleep, she was only 31 and has left behind small children, although she was very ill this was still totally unexpected and I and my daughter are in shock because of it, its so hard its not like its even really sunk in. I think because its online its easier to disconnect from it or for it not to sink in if that makes any sense. I really cant imagine what her family must be going through especially her children, she was a lovely girl, brilliant mother, funny, intelligent and its totally tragic what has happened.
I have surgery coming up next week! I feel sick thinking about it now and have been trying not to but my daughters freaking out about it and thats making me anxious, am always more of a last minute kinda person with everything, always have been and the more prepared I am too soon then the more anxious I am going to be so am trying to just enjoy me last week before surgery, hopefully not my last week ever which I feel really scared about. Am even having thoughts that maybe I should just not be having this surgery, they may even change their minds depending on my pre med.
I dunno where to go to talk about this where nobody in my family will see it especially my daughter but I feel like my time might be almost up. I always years ago had this feeling inside that I really wouldnt be very old when I did die and Im now 37 and have surpassed what I expected even long before i learned of these two illnesses that I have so I feel like it could happen, even more so that this other online friend died.
I am ok about it am more worried about my daughter as she is only coming up for 20 and our family are not that supportive or understand just how serious these illnesses are.
So please if you can could I possibly have some reiki even if its just to help calm me down a bit. I plan to live this week like its my last just in case it is and even if it isnt I will still be living what life I have left in the same way.
All the best to you all and happy easterx
I have surgery coming up next week! I feel sick thinking about it now and have been trying not to but my daughters freaking out about it and thats making me anxious, am always more of a last minute kinda person with everything, always have been and the more prepared I am too soon then the more anxious I am going to be so am trying to just enjoy me last week before surgery, hopefully not my last week ever which I feel really scared about. Am even having thoughts that maybe I should just not be having this surgery, they may even change their minds depending on my pre med.
I dunno where to go to talk about this where nobody in my family will see it especially my daughter but I feel like my time might be almost up. I always years ago had this feeling inside that I really wouldnt be very old when I did die and Im now 37 and have surpassed what I expected even long before i learned of these two illnesses that I have so I feel like it could happen, even more so that this other online friend died.
I am ok about it am more worried about my daughter as she is only coming up for 20 and our family are not that supportive or understand just how serious these illnesses are.
So please if you can could I possibly have some reiki even if its just to help calm me down a bit. I plan to live this week like its my last just in case it is and even if it isnt I will still be living what life I have left in the same way.
All the best to you all and happy easterx
